The more i think about it the more i'm convinced i have a pretty clear path for the next few years. Albany feels like another temporary residence. Although much more accommodating than Richmond, this city still doesn't have what i'm looking for. It still doesn't have an environment of intelligent cultured people. Maybe no city does, considering the more urban areas are polluted with pretention, but i remain hopeful. I remain intrigued by what it would be like to live in NYC and i feel that is my final destination after all this moving around. I want to exist there with a few musicians and thinkers. I'm not sure if that prospect includes still being employed by Bank of America. I'm sort of hoping it doesn't, but i would never take my job for granted considering how many people are struggling to find work at the moment. I'm also hoping that at some point in my life i could achieve my goals without having to be tied down to a job in which i provide no benefit to anyone. We'll see. I want to live in the city to meet people, to meet a girl; i'll just have to learn a few new skills to get there.

I am in Poughkeepsie again. I've been visiting a lot know there's not much time left to revisit my college years. Being here is like being at home, the streets i know, the people, the places to get food and drinks, some change, but each new business fills the temporary vacancy like it was there all along. Following the slight betrayal from an insecure girl i'm feeling somewhat motivated to go out and find another. They seem more willing here, not more willing to fuck, but more willing to talk, which is rare. The real world is full of people who would rather walk alone in their careers than chat with a friendly stranger. That phrase may even be fictional at this point understand how much distrust the media provokes out of us. TANGENTS TANGENTS. We'll see how this weekend plays out. At the very least i will enjoy the company, the friends i missed while in VA. And the weekends remaining are few, not sure what will relieve the tension and frustration after their gone. Maybe going back to the gym.