Illusion

It's natural to feel lost. We're spinning about the universe hurtling toward empty space, alone and sometimes afraid. We can create illusions for ourselves, believe in love, believe that someone/anyone is capable of understanding us, believe that our goals are important, worth the investment of time. We need to hold on to personal illusion to help us believe we have some importance as an individual. Without this there's nothing to live for because the universe is too big to care. I'm no more important than the stink bug that wanders around my apartment looking for crumbs. We both live and die, we both will eventually decompose and be forgotten.

My illusion is abstract in that it only presents itself after interpretation and is only found in dark corners caked in dust and cobwebs. Places like the comment portion of the song Alberto Balsalm by Aphex Twin on youtube:

i just imagine someone trying to make music...and they play the intro...no one digs it so there is a pause...then some random chick hits a table with her waist and that noise is made...then it all comes together :D

Lmfao, I can kinda see that, too, now that you mention it.

tripping on acid, my friend said to get this face out of here, so i made it my background....great shit

Lmfao, epic.

this might be the best comment ever made on youtube

I must agree with you, sir. Quite epic.

This, together with On, are probably my favourite tracks by him. This one has such a deep melancholy sadness to it, but still manages to sound uplifting in the strangest way. Like witnessing the end of the world while knowing you've still managed to save your porn. At least that's how I feel.

I feel that too, looking over the precipice and thinking, "Hey, at least I tried."

At least I'm trying...