OK, so i think i'm giving up on this "i'll go out alone and meet people at bars" thing. It's gotten me into too many awkward situations already, and i just wind up spending a ton of money with little to no reward and no new friends, so screw it. If people want to meet me it's up to them and until then i'm going to just be alone for a while. I'm sort of getting used to it, which is awful because i always believed that the more people you surrounded yourself with the more you'd learn and the more you could try and better yourself, but there's a lot of things i can work on that i can do perfectly fine on my own. This is actually a good opportunity because i can focus on guitar a lot more than i could while i was at school. And i can hit the gym really hard and tone up a bit while i have the free time. It's going to be different, but i'll be fine. I'm sure as hell not going to be happy, but that's something i'm going to have to work pretty hard to get to, so i'm going to give it time. People always say friends or love interests always show up when you're not looking for them, so from now on i'm just going to stop looking.