Tonight fucking sucked. I went for a run before and i don't know what the hell happened but my nose has been running ever since. I had big plans of just walking aimlessly to a couple bars and showing my alternative self in full form (that sounds fucking pretentious, but anyone who knows me understands) I just wanted to do something crazy and destructive tonight, but damnit my nose won't give up and my left eye is watering non-stop. Could be a sign that i was going to do something stupid, but fuck it's frustrating when all you want is release and something as trivial as a runny nose ruins the whole thing. Shit... didn't stop me from getting hammered though. Beer after beer in my apartment, yeah, it makes me seem like a fucking alchy but i needed it. Richmond has been giving me nothing but grief and i need to let go. Let go of everything, i want out of this place so bad...